Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Babies and Bottles
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Update & pictures!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Give it a rest
Also, I thought I might in my spare time, type up the story of his delivery, since many people have not heard it yet. I think all the negative stuff that followed shadowed the great labor and delivery experience I had. So I will be working on that and working on keeping it concise, but I would love to share it with you all. Let me know if anyone is really reading this or not though. (It may affect how much time I truly spend on it.) We love you all.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Prayer of the Children
Prayer of the Children
Can you hear the prayer of the children?
On bended knee, in the shadow of an unknown room
Empty eyes with no more tears to cry
Turning heavenward toward the light
Crying Jesus, help me
To see the morning light-of one more day
But if I should die before I wake, I pray my soul to take
Can you feel the hearts of the children?
Aching for home, for something of their very own
Reaching hands, with nothing to hold on to,
But hope for a better day a better day
Crying Jesus, help me
To feel the love again in my own land
But if unknown roads lead away from home,
Give me loving arms, away from harm
Can you hear the voice of the children?
Softly pleading for silence in a shattered world?
Angry guns preach a gospel full of hate,
Blood of the innocent on their hands
Crying Jesus, help me
To feel the sun again upon my face,
For when darkness clears I know you're near,
Bringing peace again
Dali cujete sve djecje molitive?
(Croatian translation: 'Can you hear all the children's prayers?')
Can you hear the prayer of the children?.
Lucky Man
Lucky Man
I have days where I hate my job
This little town, and the whole world too
and Last Sunday when my Bengals lost
Lord, it put me in a bad mood
I have moments when I curse the rain
Then complain when the sun's too hot
I look around at what everyone has
And I forget about all I've got
But I know I'm a lucky man
God's given me a pretty fair hand
Got a house and a piece of land
A few dollars in a coffee can
My old truck's still running good
My ticker's ticking like they say it should
I got supper in the oven, a good womans lovin'
And one more day to be my little kid's dad
Lord knows I'm a lucky man
Got some friends who would be here fast
I could call 'em any time of day
Got a brother who's got my back
Got a mama who I swear's a saint
Got a brand new rod and reel
Got a full week off this year
Dad had a close call last spring
It's a miracle he's still here
I know I'm a lucky man
God's given me a pretty fair hand
Got a house and a piece of land
A few dollars in a coffee can
My old truck's still running good
My ticker's tickin' like they say it should
Got supper in the oven, a good woman's lovin'
And one more day to be my little kid's dad
Lord knows I'm a lucky man
My old truck's still running good
My ticker's ticking like they say it should
Got supper in the oven, a good woman's lovin
and even my bad days ain't that bad
Ya knows I'm a lucky man
I'm a lucky, lucky man
You'll be in my heart
You'll be in my heart
Come stop your crying, it will be alright
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here don't you cry
For one so small, you seem so strong
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm
This bond between us can't be broken
I will be here don't you cry
Cuz you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Why can't they understand the way we feel
They just don't trust what they can't explain
I know we're different, but deep inside us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them, cause what do they know
We need each other, to have and to hold
They'll see in time, I know
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you've gotta hold on
They'll see in time, I know
We'll show them together cuz
You'll be in my heart
I believe, you'll be in my heart
I'll be there from this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart always
Always...
I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there always
Sunday, April 18, 2010
More action-packed adventure!
More exciting video for all your viewing pleasure! I didn't realize until I'd already posted this video that Tyler was being so loud...I hate to say it, but I kinda tune out the annoying noises he makes. I think he was feeling a bit left out. Then when I tried to take video of him, he got all shy. Anyway, hope you enjoy the video even with Tyler in the background. :)
P.S. Christopher is officially 2 months old! Yay!
Meaning of Hiru no Tsuki
Hiru no Tsuki ~ Daytime Moon
One soundless mid-day
the wind was so cheerful
Flower petals sway in the breeze
as if they were sleepy.
This serene feeling...
Tell me, what is the word people use for it?
Tell me a story that's locked away
in the white-sand moon.
Let me hear it
as gently as light shining down.
Will the time come when you will know the pain in my heart?
Then you'd be able to be gentler than you are now.
Such a warm feeling..........
tell me, what is the name that people give to it?
Softly let me hear
of the distant future,
so bright it can't be seen,
like a white sand moon.
Less isn't More
Rockstar in action!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Holy Picture Festivals!!!!!
My littlest angel
Friday, April 16, 2010
Reorganizing
There is still quite a bit more stuff that doesn't have homes, like all his food bags, back-up formula, and some of his left over sterile dressing supplies. He has several spare NG tubes (his feeding tube), as well as the special tape and clear plastic that holds it in place. Not sure where all that will go. But I was tired of everything taking over my counter tops. Hopefully some of the feeding stuff will be gone soon.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Result of Appt.
On another pleasant note, both Ty and I have a cold. We are trying to be extra careful around Christopher, and hoping he won't catch it. Good luck with that! Luv you all.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Back to Emmanuel
Sunday, April 11, 2010
HLHS Link
HLHS
What is hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Normal heart (click to enlarge)Hypoplastic left heart syndrome (HLHS) is a congenital (present at birth) syndrome that involves a combination of several abnormalities of the heart and great blood vessels.
In the normal heart, oxygen-poor (blue) blood returns to the right atrium from the body, travels to the right ventricle, then is pumped through the pulmonary artery into the lungs where it receives oxygen. Oxygen-rich (red) blood returns to the left atrium from the lungs, passes into the left ventricle, and then is pumped out to the body through the aorta.
See About the Heart and Blood Vessels for more information on how the heart normally works.
In hypoplastic left heart syndrome, most of the structures on the left side of the heart are small and underdeveloped. The degree of underdevelopment differs from child to child. The structures affected usually include the following:
Mitral valve — The valve that controls blood flow between the left atrium and left ventricle in the heart.
Left ventricle — The lower left-hand chamber of the heart. It receives oxygen-rich (red) blood from the left atrium and pumps it into the aorta, which takes the blood to the body. The left ventricle must be strong and muscular in order to pump enough blood to the body to meet its requirements.
Aortic valve — The valve that regulates blood flow from the heart into the aorta.
Aorta — The largest artery in the body and the primary blood vessel leading from the heart to the body.
Perhaps the most critical defect in HLHS is the small, underdeveloped left ventricle. This chamber is normally very strong and muscular so it can pump blood to the body. When the chamber is small and poorly developed, it will not function effectively and cannot provide enough blood flow to meet the body's needs. For this reason, an infant with hypoplastic left heart syndrome is in a very critical situation.
Hypoplastic left heart syndrome occurs in up to four out of every 10,000 live births. The syndrome comprises 8 percent of all cases of congenital heart disease. It is one of the top three heart abnormalities to cause problems in the newborn. HLHS occurs slightly more often in boys than in girls. In many children, HLHS occurs by chance, with no clear reason evident for their development.
What causes hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Hypoplastic left heart syndrome is the result of abnormal underdevelopment of sections of the fetal heart during the first 8 weeks of pregnancy. Some congenital heart defects may have a genetic link, either occurring due to a defect in a gene, a chromosome abnormality, or environmental exposure, causing heart problems to occur more often in certain families. In hypoplastic left heart syndrome, there may be abnormalities of other organs.
What are the symptoms of hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Infants with HLHS usually develop symptoms shortly after birth. The following are the most common symptoms of hypoplastic left heart syndrome. Each child may experience symptoms differently. Symptoms may include:
cyanosis (blue color of the skin, lips and nailbeds)
pale skin
sweaty or clammy skin
cool skin
heavy and/or rapid breathing
fast heart rate
The symptoms of hypoplastic left heart syndrome may resemble other medical conditions and heart problems. Always consult your child's physician for a diagnosis.
How is hypoplastic left heart syndrome diagnosed?
Hypoplastic left heart syndrome (click to enlarge)Your child's physician may have heard a heart murmur during a physical examination and referred your child to a pediatric cardiologist for a diagnosis. A heart murmur is simply a noise caused by the turbulence of blood flowing through a narrow region. Symptoms your child experiences also will help with the diagnosis.
A pediatric cardiologist specializes in the diagnosis and medical management of congenital heart defects, as well as heart problems that may develop later in childhood. The cardiologist will perform a physical examination, listening to the heart and lungs, and make other observations that help in the diagnosis. Other tests are needed to help with the diagnosis.
Chest X-ray — A diagnostic test which uses invisible electromagnetic energy beams to produce images of internal tissues, bones and organs onto film.
Electrocardiogram (ECG or EKG) — A test that records the electrical activity of the heart, shows abnormal rhythms (arrhythmias or dysrhythmias) and detects heart muscle damage.
Echocardiogram (echo) — A procedure that evaluates the structure and function of the heart by using sound waves, recorded on an electronic sensor, that produce a moving picture of the heart and heart valves.
Cardiac Catheterization — A procedure that gives function and information about the structure inside the heart. Under sedation, a small, thin, flexible tube (catheter) is inserted into a blood vessel in the groin and guided to the inside of the heart. Blood pressure and oxygen measurements are taken in the four chambers of the heart, as well as in the pulmonary artery and aorta. Contrast dye also is injected to more clearly visualize the structures inside the heart.
Cardiac Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI) — A non-invasive test that uses magnets and radio waves to make pictures of structures and blood flow inside the body.
What are the treatments for hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Specific treatment for hypoplastic left heart syndrome will be determined by your child's physician based on:
your child's age, overall health and medical history
extent of the disease
your child's tolerance for specific medications, procedures or therapies
how your child's doctor expects the disease will progress
your opinion or preference
Your child most likely will be admitted to the intensive care unit (ICU) or special care nursery once symptoms are noted. Initially, your child may be placed on oxygen, or a ventilator to assist his/her breathing. Intravenous (IV) medications may be given to help the heart and lungs function more efficiently.
Surgical repair
The surgical approach to HLHS is directed toward using the one good ventricle to do the work that is normally done by two ventricles, and to separate the "blue" or pulmonary circulation from the "red" or systemic circulation, as is the case in the normal heart. Treatment consists of three stages ending with the Fontan procedure.
The Fontan procedure takes advantage of the fact that blood flows so easily through the mature lung that it does not need the force of the right ventricle to push it through. In fact, the great veins bringing "blue" blood back to the heart, called the superior vena cava and inferior vena cava, can be channeled directly to the lungs through the pulmonary artery, bypassing the right ventricle altogether. When this is achieved, the right ventricle (in HLHS, the only ventricle) can be devoted to pumping "red" blood to the rest of the body. In this way, "blue" blood pathways and "red" blood pathways are separate, with "blue" blood reaching the lungs passively, where it is oxygenated before returning to the single ventricle as "red" blood, then pumped to the body.
The blood vessels of the lungs change over the first year of life. The Fontan procedure depends on sufficiently easy flow through the lungs to not require the force of a ventricle to conduct blood through the pulmonary circuit. This is not possible in the first months of life, and two operations must precede the Fontan procedure until the lungs are ready.
The Stage I operation (Norwood Procedure) connects the right ventricle to the aorta so that its flow, which will eventually be "red" blood, will be delivered to the body through branches of the aorta. This usually involves rebuilding a small aorta and connecting it to the ventricle. To survive the newborn period, blood flow to the immature lungs must be forceful. Blood flow to the lungs is provided through a tube from a branch of the aorta to the pulmonary artery called the Modified Blalock-Taussig Shunt.
Usually, at between three and eight months of age, the lungs mature to the point that blood flows more easily through, and ventricular force is no longer necessary. The Stage II, or Bi-directional Glenn Shunt, is a direct connection between the superior vena cava and the pulmonary artery, diverting half of the "blue" blood directly to the lungs without the assistance of the ventricle.
Finally, with still further lung maturity, the vessels of the lungs can accommodate all the body's "blue" blood and the Stage III, or Fontan procedure, can be done. The Fontan procedure connects the inferior vena cava to the pulmonary artery by creating a channel, or baffle, through the heart to direct its flow to the pulmonary artery. Now all the "blue" blood flows passively to the lungs, and the single ventricle pumps exclusively "red" blood to the body.
What is the long-term outlook after treatment for hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Children with hypoplastic left heart syndrome will need follow-up care throughout their life to make sure their heart continues to work correctly. Most will require heart medicines. Consult your child's physician regarding the specific outlook for your child.
What is the latest research on hypoplastic left heart syndrome?
Complementing the Cardiovascular Program of Children's Hospital Boston is the nation's most intensive clinical and basic research program focused on pediatric heart disease. Children's is a world leader in opening new avenues of "translational research," bringing laboratory advances to the bedside and doctor's office as quickly as possible. All senior medical staff members of the Cardiovascular Program participate in clinical research activities.
~Mostly Good News
The one negative to all that we heard is that Christopher's tricuspid valve is leaking moderately. This is the valve between the right atrium and the right ventricle. The leakage is do to pressure load, and volume load. I will try my best to explain. Right now all of the blood from the body and all the blood from the lungs is dumping and mixing in Christopher's right atrium. (This is how it has to be plumbed to work.) That is a lot of blood for one chamber when it was meant for two. The valve has always leaked since his first surgery. There is no way around it. But it is getting slightly worse. The ways to remedy this leakage is to up his medication. But that will only do so much, for so long. The other way to minimize the leakage is the Glenn procedure with is the second heart surgery. In this surgery, 1/2 of the blood that is being directed to the right atrium is redirected. This takes a substantial amount of workload off the heart. Dr. Chang will keep an eye on the leak. We may just have to go to surgery sooner than later. And the surgeons would prefer to do it later just for the size factor.
Dr. La Gras is Christopher's Cardiologist in regards to his pacemaker. Now for a little bit of history. We were originally told that it is very common for kids coming out of surgery to have an external pacemaker as the heart is being completely rerouted and is severely swollen. Then we were told that it was common to have arrhythmia (irregular or skipped beats) for a day or two. Then a couple of weeks went by and we were told that he had total heart block ( his atrium and ventricle weren't "speaking" to each other and probably never would), but that the cardiologist were going to give him a couple more days before giving him a permanent pacer. The next two days he went from total heart block, to third degree (every third beat he would do himself) to second degree heart block (every other beat is himself). He couldn't sustain a heart rate over 90 however, and it was determined that he would need the permanent pace maker even though he had mad progress. Once he had the pacemaker in he went from pacing 50% of the time to pacing 100% of the time, meaning he wasn't pumping his heart himself whatsoever.
When we talked to Dr. Chang on Friday, he said that he would probably be pacemaker dependent for life.
We then went in to talk to Dr. La Gras. In two weeks Christopher has gone from pacing 100% to sensing 85%! Which we were told can't happen or is very unlikely. He is pumping is own little heart 85% of the time. Dr. La Gras explained that he will always have a pace maker, but that it was extremely good that he had recovered so much of his own conductivity. He change the mode on the pace maker to pause just a little bit before it sends a charge, to kind of wait and see if his own charge will kick in. He also said that in a month when he checks back in, there is a good chance that he'll be sensing 100% which means they will change the mode to back up mode. Back up will only send a charge when he forgets to send a charge which at that point may only be once or twice a day. This greatly increases the life of the pacemaker. When he used it 100% he would've had to get a replacement in 5 years. Now he may not need one for 15 years!!!!!
I asked Dr. La Gras, since Christopher will have a pacemaker for life, how important is it really, whether he or the pacemaker sends the charge. He explained it like this: The heart should contract all at the same time. When you're on a pacemaker there's a slight delay when the pacemaker sends the charge. It is much better for the heart to be fluid and charges sent in harmony. So we are excited to find that he is doing much of the work on his own!
I am looking for a good link that I like that explains all 3 surgeries. I am not the best at explaining things.
"Prayer of the Children"
P.S. I'll have to put some Hank Williams Jr, on here too since this music isn't really Rob's style. lol :)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
First Cardiology Check-up
Also I don't think I'll be able to post video from my phone, but I am working on another plan. Stay tuned for more fun.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Easter!
Friday, April 2, 2010
Baby 1 Boy Wirt...haha
Pictures!!!!!
Here is a pic of part of Chris' nursery. As you can see, his crib has to be at an incline, for the best digestion possible....and there is his IV pole that we have his feeding pump on. It is much more intimidating with the feeding bag and tubes on there, but I didn't think to take a picture of that.
Here is our big freezer stocked with all my hard pumped breast milk. It may be kinda weird to post a pic of this....but here's what I think: 1. I'm weird, 2. I'll probably never get a chance to brag about something like this for a long time!!! :) I am saving it with the hope that after his cardiology check up on the 9th, his plearal sacs look clear enough to try the breast milk, and take him off the low fat formula. He will probably not be able to breast feed for quite some time if ever. But I am hopeful that with enough perseverance on both our parts that he'll be big and strong in no time.